the fog

fogs seem to go on forever. sometimes it’s nearly impossible to see one foot in front of you, and you certainly can’t see a destination on the horizon. that pretty much sums up where I have been over the last 2 weeks.

it seems that i have allowed responsibilities (failed and forthcoming) to overwhelm me.

this may come as a result of the fact that i am a (self-proclaimed) dreamer (jen would probably affirm this). i spend a lot of time with my head in the clouds, envisioning where we will be someday down the road, but it seems that I live my day to day life with zero visibility. i spend so much time thinking about how things should be or how I could help make things better, that i neglect the little things that would allow me to faithfully lead my family.

my prayer, as of late, has been that God will direct me to be more focused on what’s right in front of me here and now. i don’t want to have my head in the clouds. i want to be able to relate to people and to deal with issues that are in my line of sight, rather than how to solve climate change.

this revelation does not insinuate that i will no longer be thinking about the big picture. i don’t think i can help that. i've just come to realize that i can’t possibly be a light in the darkness to anyone else if i can’t see two feet in front of me.

-dave-